Darkness surrounds you but all you can see is his face. You remember his short wavy black hair, and chocolate brown eyes. You remember every mole on his face like a connect-a-dot puzzle. You used to trace them together with your hands.
It’s cold, and wet, and dirty, but all you remember is being warm next to him back then.
Back when you both trained to be Jedi under Luke Skywalker. Those years seem like a lifetime ago.
Back when he betrayed everyone, including you.
All you can see is his face as he stood over you with a lightsaber, and started to bring it down–but he hesitated. He didn’t say a word as he disappeared.
You and Luke were the only survivors.
You should hate him, but you can’t help it that you still love him. You still love Ben Solo. Because the boy he was that day was not Ben Solo, no, that day he killed Ben Solo.
You hear footsteps and then see a stormtrooper in front of your cell. You were kidnapped by Kylo Ren and held captive. You didn’t know what you were about to face. You were after all, part of the resistance, and they knew it.
The stormtrooper opens up the cell and places handcuffs on you. “Follow me,” he says.
He takes you to a room with a chair with several straps on it, and throws you into the chair. You try to escape, but his grasp is too strong. You’re locked into the chair.
The stormtrooper leaves you alone in darkness.
It isn’t long before the door slides open and a robed and hooded figure steps into the room. He is wearing a black helmet that conceals his face. It is no other than Kylo Ren. You’re filled with fear. He turns on a switch that fills the room with red light.
He stops suddenly in front of you.
“You’re the girl?” He asks. His voice is full of surprise.
“Not what you expected?”
“Not exactly, Y/N.” He says.
“How do you know my name?” You demand.
To answer he removes his helmet revealing a familiar face. It’s the face you see in your dreams, in your daydreams, in your nightmares. It’s Ben Solo.
“No, it can’t be,” you say and shake your head.
“It’s me, Y/N,” he says. “And we’re together again.”
“No, no we’re not,” you say. “You killed anything we had long ago along with the others.”
“We’ll see about that,” he says and leans forward. He’s so close that you can feel his breath on your lips. He holds his hand up.
You know exactly what he’s doing and your thoughts betray you. You remember your first kiss. You remember cold nights snuggling together. You remember everything that is Ben Solo.
“My name is Kylo Ren now,” he says. “But it’s still me, Y/N. We can still be together. That’s why you’re here afterall.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’ve been searching for you ever since I lost you. You left the island and so I sent stormtroopers out throughout the galaxy. And I finally found you. It was all for you.”
“If your idea of all for me is throwing me in a cell, I don’t want to be a part of this. Ben Solo died that day.”
“But I’m better now, stronger now. I can protect you now.”
“You couldn’t even protect me from yourself,” you say. Maybe he didn’t leave external scars, but the internal scars run deep.
“I will keep you here until you see, until you see that we are meant to be,” he says and leaves the room.
He never lets you go.